A life lived in chaos.

Why is it that people that grow up in homes full of disfunction. Find it so difficult to be happy without it? Unknowingly looking for ways to sabotage there success. That they can find no happiness in it? Why is it, that the lack of disfunction in a persons life causes such a since of insecurity. The answer to that question is this. The lack of faith and self worth and not fully understanding the gravity and depth of the trauma they have been exposed to. The reason I say this is because for years I lived that way. Always unknowingly looking for ways to destroy my happiness. I just didn’t like the uncomfortable feeling of living a life that was normal. Lack of drama was boring. It has taken years for me to see the insanity in my thoughts back then. I also understand just how hard it is to change that mind set. Being addicted to the drama is just as addictive as any drug. And just a hard to recover from. If you don’t renew your spirit and seek God everyday. Continue to do the next right thing. You will never recover to a place where your able to enjoy life in a realistic point of view. The one most people say. Living life on life’s terms. Let me tell you this it is a long hard process one that requires a strong belief in God and his forgiveness. As well as a willingness to change. By being open to suggestions learning what it means to be humble. Anyway. Just a thought.


2 thoughts on “A life lived in chaos.

  1. Often we get caught up in and distracted by our own thoughts, thoughts that are not of God exercises power to tear down our lives (2 Corinthians 10:5). It’s important to renew our mind, it makes a difference between encouragement and hopelessness.

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  2. Interesting that you bring this up. I have a friend that has always had a life full of drama. She seems to enjoy it. If one thing goes right she finds other things to complain about. She’s always the victim in every situation. A lot of the stuff she brings upon herself. Most conversations with her are tiring.

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