It is my belief that there is a great deal that can be learned from working the 12 steps, every now and then. I have also came to believe there is a great deal that can be gained, when families’ work through the steps together. Step work, works on any issue a person my find themselves struggling with. Its a great tool for grounding yourself by offering a additional tools to open the mind the body and the soul to change.  By taking the time to work through the steps you may learn something new about yourself as I have.

Step one. (We admitted we were powerless over are dependency—that our lives have become unmanaged). REF. Mathew 9:36

Step one asks us to confront the chaos and the unmanageability of our dependent life styles.  The paradox of every addiction is the more we try to compulsively control ourselves through the practice of addiction, the more out of control our lives spin. 

    In what counterfeit ways do we for interior security through codependent manipulation of the outside world?  We may struggle desperately through our perfectionism or workaholism to win the praise and approval of our fellows.  We may become preoccupied through hypochondria with health and bodily functions in pursuit of a kind of physical immortality and invincibility.  We may strive to shore up our own fragile self-esteem by allowing a love partner to become the only source of affirmation for our worth.

    In the depths of our dependency.  We are like sheep, weary and scattered.  Scripture assures us that the true Shepherd, Jesus Christ, views this human discord and fragmentation with deep compassion. The 12 steps recovery allows us to confront compassionately but firmly our own human manageability.

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On today I will be grateful for all the blessings and the favor, that the lord has showed me and my family. I am grateful that I still have an opportunity to be in his presence and in his will. Today my ministry gains a new step to the foundation. It’s now time to stand accountable not only to my family but to the house of the lord and his people. The door to to Deacon has opened and it is now time to walk through. To a god be the glory.

Thank God for this day. Today is a big deal for me. I’m starting on phase 2 of my journey to help others through my ministry. Getting my State Certification in Peer Counseling. I’ve been doing the work already. However having the correct paperwork in tow will open different doors for me to be of service to those My God would have me to assist. To God be the glory. Continue to Put a God First in all your dealings. Work hard to do the next right thing even if you don’t feel like doing it. Fight every moment of every day to Keep You Integrity in tact.

To always do the right thing is not quite as Eazy as it might sound. On my journey to become the man of God that God would have me to be. I sometimes find it difficult to be forgiving. Sometimes I have to stop and monitor my own prejudices when trying to be understanding of another’s struggles and short comings. I often have to remind myself that I to fall shot. That I to need people to show me compassion and patience. I at times find myself angry and impatient with others. However what I have learned on this journey is God is able to right the ship if I am willing to continue to put him first in all my actions. I alway have to remind myself of the word that God has give me. Continue to put me first in all your actions. Continue to do the next right thing. No matter how I feel about it and to always keep your integrity in tact and I will open the doors of haven for. So I continue the journey, knowing that He is with me. In the mist of my struggles as we as the joy that comes in the morning. To everyone that has taken the time to read this and those that have not. My God bless and keep you in your journey. So remember to keep the faith.

Every day for me brings new challenges. Many of them are very new to me. I find myself challenging, in my own mind the, action of others and the impact that their movements have, on how I view them. I am finding it very hard to reason why those close to me, seem to believe that their lack of consideration for me is Ok. I find myself praying for them and for me more and more that I may find a better way of dealing with this time in my life without being resentful, as well as extremely withdrawn from them, as a way of protecting my sobriety as well as my mental state. God continues to show me so many things that I once over looked and I find myself distressed and sometimes lowly of heart. However I continue to be strong and of good courage. Prepared for battle in front of me. Dawned in the full armer of God. For if. God is with me who will stand against me. For it is Gods will not mine that with rule the day. To God be the glory.

That pretty much sums it up.

I’m starting to see what this living in Gods will is all about. Having the opportunity to lead my family in a direction that promotes love, understanding, and forgiveness. Leading by example not with hollow words with no honor behind them. I now can feel the spirit of God that lives within and the more I line up with his will for my life the better things become. However the more I stay in Gods will the more I find myself under attack. The suggestions that are place in my path. The one that if I’m not vigilante have the capability to pull me in a direction that would take me out of Gods will. I’ve learned when times like this show themselves, to stop and pray for some direction. To seek advice from my Father Pastor J.R. Craig. A man of God in word and in deeds. A man I can count on because of his love for me. As i grow in my faith I see things in a different light. The possibilities that stand before. Life is such a blessing if you put God first😇😁😎

Setting here in church this morning watching the children perform. Really helps to put things into perspective for me. The ministry God has given me is a mission with a lot of moving parts. Those parts all work for the Glory of God. However it’s is designed to help the children by guiding the parents back to the path that well help strengthen our children by giving the hope and direction. Today I am so grateful that God granted me another day and an opportunity to be a better man today than I was in days past. KEEP PRAYING KEEP PUTTING GOD FIRST. CONTINUE TO DO THE NEXT RIGHT THING. KEEP YOUR INTEGRITY INTACT.

Serenity prayer.

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      As we pray the serenity prayer we learn to think in new ways. We learn to ask questions that will lead us away from our destructive past and into a productive future.

      We begin to ask, what changes I can make to improve my own situation. What things are beyond our control? What are our responsibilities in the situations we face? As we develop this new thought processes we may lack confidence in our own wisdom and common sense. We may hesitate to carry our gods will if we are afraid of the criticism of the people around us.

      Common sense could be defined as our ability to figure out in advance what the likely consequences of our choices and actions will be. We are told that “getting wisdom is the wisest thing you can do! And whatever else you do, develop good judgment” (Proverbs 4:7). We can exercise our common sense by thinking about what we can do and then doing the things that we can. A women wanted to do something to demonstrate her love for Jesus.  So she poured some expensive perfume on his head. The disciples criticized her for doing this. Jesus came to her defense with these words. “Leave her alone. Why criticize her for doing such a good thing for me?  She has done what she could” (mark 14: 6-8). These are words we can cling to.

      God wants to renew our mind and help us develop wisdom and common sense. As we try to sort out our choices and develop common sense, people may criticize us. But we can trust that god will come to our defense as long as we do what scripture directs us to do.