Yesterday was a good day. Got a chance to hang out with my wife. No drama. Sent some time being supportive and mindful of one another. It strange lesson to learn at this age that life isn’t all that bad if you just take the time to live it. To come out of hiding. I finally after all these years have learned that part of the fun of life is overcoming your fears. Excepting the challenge of life and overcoming them if it be in Gods will. Some days like yesterday the air smelled a little sweater the mountains a little taller and my family a little closer. What a difference a day makes. Progress not perfection. However I’m grateful for what and who I have In my life that I call family. Friends and the love of my life. KEEP PUTTING GOD FIRST.

As my 49th birthday approaches. My thoughts this morning are centered on how much time has past. How much time has been wasted in the lives of my family. Life to this point has been full of drama. Lives filled with resentment towards one another. Never truly taking the time to truly love one another. However on this day I have a new since of hope, that my family is working through the anger and resentment. This year for my birthday I’ve asked my family to spend some time with me at my fathers house. To be able to see them all together enjoying each other’s company and hopefully begin the process of healing through forgiveness. Now that I truly understand the power in forgiveness it is my hope and prayer that we will learned to forgive one another while we still have time. Having a full understanding that learning to love one another requires faith that God loves us and forgives us. By allowing us the grace to correct our paths. It is the grace, we should have for one another. Today I am grateful for all those that I have opportunity to love and cherish in my life. While it is today. For tomorrow is not promised and yesterday has already passed. So, I will be grateful in this moment for those I still have in my life and grateful for the time spent with those that have moved on. I will always be grateful for the time. Thank you for spending a few moments out of your day. To read what’s on my heart this morning. May you have a blessed and productive day. Keep Putting God First. 😇

When our burdens become heavy and we find that our way of life is leading us toward death, we may finally be willing to let someone else do the driving. We may have worked hard to get our lives on on the track but still feel as if we always end u[p on dead-end streets.

Proverbs tells us, “There is a path before each person that seems right, but it ends in death” (Proverbs 14:12). When we began our addictive behavior, we were probably seeking pleasure or looking for a way to overcome our pain. The way seemed right at first, but it wasn’t long before it became clear that we were on the wrong track. By then we were unable to turn around on our own. Jesus said, “Come to me, all of who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls” (Mathew 11:28-29).

Taking on a yoke implies being united to another in order to work together must go in the same direction; by doing so, their work is made considerably easier. When we finally decide to submit our life and our will to Gods direction, our burdens will become manageable. When we let him do the driving, we will “find rest” for our soul. He knows the way and has the strength to turn us around and get us on the road toward recovery.

The more things change the more things stay the same. Once upon a time when my life was out of control. Every one was happy to have me in that place so they would have someone to blame and look down upon. However now that my life is no longer out of control, the bitterness,and hatred is constantly thrown in my direction. I’m starting to wonder if these issues can ever be corrected or should I just walk away. Maybe they would feel better and I can remove myself from the attacks that have been coming my way. Life in recovery is difficult and not always full of promising relationships. So I continue to look to God for some direction. Because what I want to do, might not be the best decision? God has been blessing me in ways I never thought possible. I try to share that love and joy that I feel with those around me. But it seems at time that they wound rather stay in that pain instead of finding the strength that is required to move past it. What I mean by that is this. Understanding where that anger is coming from? Is it worth holding on to? What role have I played in making the situation better or worse?what can I do to make the situation better or should I leave it in the past. So I continue to pray for understanding. Knowing that, these situations have been placed here to help me grow and mature in my faith. Like it say in the scriptures. For this is the day the Lord has made so let us rejoice and be glad in it. With that being said I continue to put God First in all my dealings. I continue to do the next right thing and I will continue to keep my integrity intact. Always remembering from where my help comes from. Not from man but from God himself.

Morning. Just stopping in this morning to keep everyone up to speed on the growth of my ministry. Making a lot of progress. I have two new videos out on line and getting ready to bring the video podcast on line. If you haven’t had the chance to visit my website 2manyfaces.net take a few moments today and take a peek. I would your feedback. Have a blessed and productive day. 😁

Psalm 31 9-13. Have mercy upon me, O Lord, for I am in trouble:
Mine eye is consumed with grief, yea, my soul and my belly.
10 For my life is spent with grief, and my years with sighing:
My strength failed because of mine iniquity, and my bones are consumed.
11 I was a reproach among all mine enemies,
But especially among my neighbors, and a fear to mine acquaintance:
They that did see me without fled from me.
12 I am forgotten as a dead man out of mind:
I am like a broken vessel.
13 For I have heard the slander of many:
Fear was on every side:
While they took counsel together against me,
they devised to take away my life.

These verses reflect the heavy toll that sin takes on our life. When we fall into its bondage, everything begins to fall apart. Friends and neighbors avoid us, afraid to come near us. The psalmist understood how we might feel when caught in the trap of sin and continual failure. But he also knew that God is merciful and ready to help us when we call out to him. God is willing to forgive and empower us if we will only look to him for help.

Gods great power over the natural world. Yet even though his majesty is greater than any words can describe, he knows and loves each of us. Knowing how powerless we are over the problems we face should make us realize that we need to turn our life over to him, the one who is all powerful. He is the only one able and willing to help us.

What joy and gratitude we feel when God picks us up and does not allow our problems to defeat us! One of the hard lessons to learn during recovery is how to delay gratification. We may go through some long, dark nights struggling with temptation before we experience the joy of victory. But the Lord will not let our enemy triumph over us. When we do finally overcome, the joy of success will only be that much sweeter. Sometimes we may be in the most danger when we become over confident. When everything in our lives are going well. We think that nothing can happen to us. But pride and arrogance usually come before a fall. Sometimes God allows us to go our own way and suffer the consequences so we will learn that we can’t make it alone. We will succeed in recovery only when we learn to rely completely on God and follow his plan.

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Having breakfast with my wife and grandson. I see the beauty in being present in the moment. To see a smile on my grand sons face the love and security he must feel from having so many people around him that love him. I still see the distance between me and my wife from all he pain and insecurity she has felt over the years. I feel the uneasiness within myself as I learn to deal with my family differently then before. By having a better understanding of what it means to be present in their lives. I’m so grateful that God has granted me the opportunity to live life. To understand my own personal defects and the presence of mind to recognize them. Oh what a feeling to be present in the moment. As a recovering addict it is imperative that I always stay present in the moment. To always be conscious of my thoughts and emotions. Being present helps a person like myself to stay out of unhealthy situations and environments. I’m always grateful for the day. The scriptures says. Choose this day whom you shall serve. As for me and my house we will serve the lord. KEEP PUTTING GOD FIRST.

If we wait for all our fears to go away before we take steps, we will never make significant progress in recovery. Courage isnt the absence of fear. Courage means that we take advantage of the little strength we find within ourself, that we find llittle ways to encourage ourself, and that we stubbornly stick to Gods program for us. Courage doesnt mean being free of fear. It means finding enough strength to take the next step. The disciples were terrified when they saw Jesus walking on water. then Peter called to him, Lord, if its really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water. Jesus said yes come. So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. But when he saw the strong wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink. Save me, Lord! he shouted. Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. (Matthew 14:28-31). Peter gathered up enough courage to take one step and venture out into a new experience. When he got in over his head, he called out to Jesus and found the help he needed. We only need to summon the courage to take the next step. This doesnt mean that we wont be afraid or dont need help. it does mean that with Gods help, we can make it. All we need is the courage to take just one more step. Life Recovery Bible.